Hey Guys,
Something that has been plaguing my life lately is
this idea of bitterness. Both generically in the idea of bitterness
and the reality of being bitter towards people.
It has been a blessing and a curse that I have a
decent memory. One great thing is that it helps me remembers useless
facts and details about people. However the more negative side of it
is that I always seem to remember when someone wronged me. Which
proves negative for relationships, friendships and any human
interaction.
Seemingly lately I have begun to realize that as
little as I would like to admit it I am holding on to bitterness. The
stupid thing about this is that it does nothing for you. It
does not even effect the person you are upset with. All it does is
negatively affect you or in this case me.
I have been trying to spend this last week (weeks) to rid myself of the bitterness that has been dwelling within my life. In many ways to cleanse myself of this junk in my life. What I am finding is that although there is bitterness towards other people there is also bitterness towards myself. It is one of these vicious cycles in my life where I am upset with people, hurt and frustrated. Then in return I am angered with myself for not allowing these things to be let go.
As I am realizing I hold onto issues whether it
has been frustration with my parents, or friends that have let me
down, to not getting a job to anything along those lines I like to
hold onto bitterness and pain.
If there is anything I have been learning this
last week it boils down to this point, let it go and lay it down. It
is not healthy to hold on to these things, regardless the depths of
how someone has hurt you, frustrated you, or anything holding onto
bitterness does nothing except limit you.
Much Love,
Much Love,
Christian Sawka