As I posted in another page of this blog I have set goals that I want to accomplish for 2011. Here they are in case you did not see them.
Run a profitable business
GPA of 3.6 for second semester
Run this Blog
Pay my tuition
I am going to go through each goal and sort of explain what they actually mean. Yes these goals are 'Smart' goals, they are specific, measurable, achievable, realistic and timely (kinda). There are a few that are not smart goals but most of them are, they have something I can achieve. I had a great talk with my councillor today just about what do the goals actually mean. These goals although seem large are refined goals of something much larger and something almost unachievable.
Run for TWUSA president, this is a goal I made not because I have this overwhelming urge to put something on my resume or to get a title or something like that but its is because the first goal I made was. Make a difference at TWU, this was my goal because I love TWU, I love being here everyday and want to make an active difference to better this campus. So over the Christmas break I sat down and thought this out, how can I make the biggest difference for TWU. That is why I came up with this goal and this is why it says run and not win. Because it is not about having to win for me it is about not having regrets, not saying month down the road I SHOULD have run, I SHOULD have at least tried. I am not going to do that again. So I refined the goal down from making a difference too and actual goal of how I can make a difference.
Run a profitable business, if you have read my blog before you can already see I had trouble this summer with my College Pro Business. I did a pretty horrible job and overall did no where near the unrealistic goals I had set. Goals have always been something I set but I always seemed to set them unrealistically high. I would set goals I know I could accomplish but just to aim high. Well the thing about goals is that if you miss them it still sucks to miss them. This goal started as this gaining back my confidence in business. When you fail at something and feel like you have let someone down you lose the confidence you once had in it. So I thought to myself what would be the single best way to regain my confidence. Well go back to where I failed and accomplish a goal. Which is to regain the confidence I once had in myself.
GPA of 3.6 for Second Semester, this goal as simple as it sounds simply get a certain GPA has something behind it. Often I have been told that I under achieve and you know what they may actually be right! This is another goal where I want to actually prove to myself that 1. I can accomplish a GPA goal finally and 2. I prove to myself and the people who has told my I slack of that I have been (this is a weird one). This is not a goal to prove to someone but to prove to myself that we do not need to be just in molds we can achieve higher or more by simply pushing ourselves.
Pay my Tuition, As many people night know I attending Trinity Western University which is an amazing university but it also has amazingly high tuition payments and it has always been a goal of mine to pay my tuition. As the years have been progressing every year I seem to pay just a little bit more each time and hopefully for my last year I will be able to pay it all. This 'goal' comes from me wanting to take more responsibility and this does not mean being in charge but to take more responsibility for my life. Paying my bills, becoming financially independent, and becoming as a whole person independent. This one is going to take a while, I am still broke.
Run this Blog, this blog was a goal of mine and the last one I will talk about in this part. First off I would like to thank everyone who reads this, who comments, who messages me, emails me, talks to me or uses smoke signals :) it has been a true encouragement. The reason I wanted to create this blog and to write for anyone to read was because I wanted to be more open. Anyone who knows me knows I am pretty open but I wanted to push myself to be more open, to never to get to that point where I feel like there is NO one that cares, no one that knows what is going on and no one that knows about me.
If you have made it this far sorry that post was so long but that point I am trying to get across is that if you are making goals, resolutions or objectives for 2011 or this month or week. Make them realistic, make them something you can really achieve and think through them. Look at my goals in this post
Run for TWUSA President = Make a Difference at TWU
Run a Profitable Business = Regain Confidence
GPA of 3.6 for Second Semester = Prove to Myself
Pay my Tuition = Take Responsibility
Run this Blog = Be Open
Not date for 2nd semester
Work on family relationship*
Make a difference in at least one persons life
Active member in church
As I mention in part one goals are not goals that cannot be achieved but these are goals that are a little harder to accomplish. On this second part there are 3 little unattainable goals and 2 attainable. However like I mentioned before they each derive from something larger.
I have talked about my dating experiences a little before in my competition post but for this next semester I am not going to date for my entire second semester. Now I know to some of you this seems ridiculous because it is easy not to have a girlfriend for a semester but this goes so much further then that. It is broken into these rules:
1. No Physical Intimacy (Kissing, Cuddling anything...)
2. No Official or Unofficial Dates
3. No Leading Girls on
This is where it starts to become more difficult because it is no longer just not having a girlfriend but it includes everything else. Now I bet you are already speculating as to why I am not dating but what it comes from. Well this is the thing I am tired of hurting people now that sounds kind of arrogant but it is the truth. I tend to lose focus, interest and everything in girls. It is sad and something I am working on but right now that means that I should recognize my weakness and should stay away from that. The biggest mistake we could make is knowing our weakness and fault and not trying to work with them. If you know you have trouble with something ask for help or try and improve it.
Work on family relationship. This is something I do not talk about because the one thing I want to keep to myself is my relationship with my family.
Make a difference in one persons life, This is an interesting thing because as I talked about in a previous point what kind of a difference you can make there is. What I am aiming for is this unintentional I what to make a difference in one persons life without intentionally doing it. This deeper goals is that I what to change my life to live and show people my life by example. Often one of the biggest criticism I have gotten in my life is that I do not always lead by example and that is something I want to drastically improve in 2011 is living my life by my actions and by example. It is easy to say make a difference in one person life but now try and make a difference in one persons life by trying to make a difference in your own life. That is what I am trying to do and it is probably one of the hardest task I have been trying to accomplish for a while but this year I am going to make it a high priority and actually aim to do this.
Stay accountable and transparent, Often in my life I have been extroverted always told people what was going on in my life but never the problems I have been facing. This goal is with this is to actually trust someone to be transparent to them. The deeps issue that comes out of this is my inability to trust people and to be vulnerable. I have this utter fear of trust people beyond telling them about my day. People often mistake me talking and me being transparent it is a scary feeling. My goal this year is to work on my trust issue and my ability to be vulnerable but the thing is how do you work on something like that? Well I broke it down what does trusting someone mean? what does being vulnerable look like? Well that is how they look trusting someone does not mean just telling them about your day it also means letting them know what you are struggling with, what you need help with. Being vulnerable means to put yourself out there with the fear of knowing people are going to see what is actually going on and accepting that. It is stepping out of your comfort zone if you sit in your little group of friends and do not step out of your comfort zone you are not exactly opening yourself to being vulnerable. Yes it does take different forms for certain people but this is what it looks like for me.
My last goal of 2011 is this... Active member in church
And that will be part 3 :)
I am going to conclude with this... this is not my best post I have had an emotional roller coaster over these last few days and have had to look myself in the mirror and face some tough issues. However what I have learned, where I am moving on to. I will leave you with this reflect. MAKE GOALS they are great things but they need to be achievable and have a higher purpose. A great man told me a few days ago that we should take BIG STEPS one step at a time. Make an active change into who you want to become one day at time do not make these huge unachievable goals but rather take one step after the other to achieve the goal you have set. I am sorry for the short post look back tonight or tomorrow there will be a few big ones coming.
Goodbye for now,