Stars in the Sky

Hey Guys,

Like most nights I am late again, pondering life, plans and this guy named Jesus. This is not a rare occurrence for me as my mind usually ponders the deepness of God and all He is. Tonight was different though, tonight something was different than most nights. For the first night in many I knew God was there with me.

What made this night different was that I took a late night walk, I walked for about 2 minutes before I stopped. I stopped because I saw the big dipper, Orion’s belt, I saw the stars.

This seems ridiculous though, they are just stars. Massive gases burning producing light millions and millions of miles away. But I was reminded of something tonight. The God who created the stars, the creator of all, created me.

It was no accident, no mistake but purposeful creation.

I mean this is the God that “determines the number of the stars; he gives to all of them their names” 

(Psalm 147:4)

It leaves me in the same place that David is in, in the Psalms. That “When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?” (Psalm 8:3-4)

For I am sinner, a man broken and in need of a savior.

At it comes down to this for me tonight, that for the creator of the stars, the heavens and the earth if he cares about each one of those… How much more does he care about me?

“How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
     They cannot be numbered!
   I can’t even count them;
      they outnumber the grains of sand!
   And when I wake up,
      you are still with me!”

(Psalm 139:17-18)

It is nights like this I am reminded “Why should I be afraid, When you placed the stars in place” (You Shine – Brain Doerksen)  I have nothing to fear, because God placed the stars, named them. But so much more, he loves a sinner like me.

Much Love,

Christian

Oh my God, where art thou?

I once had a dream. I dreamed big, I dreamed far and I believed God could. I do not know what has happened to me over these last months but those dreams are not there.

I felt so clearly God had called me to something great, to lay down my life and follow him. I pursued this for a while but somewhere along this road I replaced God with this world. I replaced the one God with idols of this world. I use to wake up with joy that has long been replaced with sadness and fatigue. Sometimes I wonder oh why could this be? 

I stress about the temporary and forget about the eternity. 

I focus only on the present and nothing on the creator.

Where did my love for God to? Where did my peace go? Where did my God go?

Did I lose him?

Did I misplace my God somewhere? 

God is never gone, never far away. Yet I did misplace him in my heart. I placed my lonelyness there, my need to be loved there, my need to be right, my need for a savior! I replaced my Savior with fillers.

I think my bible has more dust than a bookshelf, I pray as much as I run, and I worship as much as I clean (sparing at best)

I was at a conference on Thursday and the pastor said this 'Full-time minister part-time believer'. This sums up my life as it stands I am a full time student and a part-timer follower of Christ.

Hopefully today wakes me up, reminds me of where my focus is and who I should focus on. 

Hopefully...

Christian 

Slowing Down

There are times I need to remind myself to slow down and smell the roses...

That is a funny statement coming from me, and a guy for that matter but lately what I have been noticing in my life is that I am perpetually busy. If I am not doing something I am pressing forward until I reach the next area. Moving from task, to task, to task. What happened to the days of slowing down and enjoying each moment.

By no means am I suggesting doing nothing but what I mean is enjoying the moment I am in. Enjoying the life that is going on right now. It scares me to think of all the simple things I am missing out because of the fact that I am going at 100 miles an hour. Whether it is work, or helping people, or serving or anything I am always filling my time.

In this last month I cannot remember a time I have taken the time to enjoy a good book, make myself tea or even taken the time to write. One weekend I was in Edmonton, next week I was in Eneumclaw, then followed by Blue River, and yet I was so on the move I can barely remember what I did any more.

I told myself this was going to be the 'Summer of Christian' and so far it has been a fantastic summer but there is something I have no done yet, rest and rested in the Lord.

I've been spending the whole summer working my butt off, travelling and constantly filling my time... Maybe rest is the answer now.

Much Love,
Christian Sawka