So as some of you know the election began today as some of you know, but for the ones that do not know the official TWUSA president campaigning began today. Now the reason this title says being tentative is because I am scared about this becoming a competition. I know I have talked this before but today it hit me hard today. This is because today I started to see people putting on masks and also Mars Hill started an online poll. But let me talk about this mask idea. Gabi a friend of mine talked about this on her blog and it go me thinking about the type of mask I put on and the ones people put on around me. I like to normally commend myself for not having different masks that I put on (although my family would like it maybe if I matured a little more around my family). But I still suffer from putting on masks.
One of the first masks that I put on is this mask of competition or sales. I saw it today when I was walking through the dorms at TWU. I walked into a friends room and he asked me to show him what I did when I did cold calling. So we set up this scenario where I walked out of the room and I got into my 'character' and would cold call there dorm. What cold calling is, is basically asking someone if they want a service or to buy something. Well as I walked out of the door I just focused and changed into this character and put this mask on. I turned back, knocked on the door and I was a completely different person. They rejected and I had to rebuttal. I could not even tell you what I said, or what went on because once I snapped back into reality and was back to normal. It is a weird things these masks we put on because this is one of the masks/characters I step into which is interesting.
The other mask I put on is masks of security. Which is where I show that I am confident, secure and the man. Well frankly I find myself putting this mask on a lot more when I get nervous, out of my comfort zone and concerned. I noticed that I have put this on lately because I have been extremely nervous lately. I normally never admit when I am out of my comfort zone or nervous. But I am admitting that these last few days with elections coming up I have been nervous and uncomfortable. Weird eh? After this blog and sharing my life pretty much online I can still get nervous. I was nervous this week because I knew I had to put myself out there. I had to put my name out, what I believe in and what I stand for. Furthermore people get to vote on whether or not they think you are right. This gets me nervous!
We will find out how this election goes I just have to remember to be me. I do not intend of changing any of my actions because this is who I am. I am not going to pretend to be someone I am not, try not to over promise anything and follow the same routine I do everyday. The greatest thing I want to be able to say after this election is that I, Christian Sawka did not change anything about myself while running. That would be the happiest thing for me. I am going to try and stay away from putting on a mask, we will see and hopefully I can stay strong.
Goodbye for now,
Christian Sawka
Kudos to you for admitting that you wear masks. And in addition sharing what kind. It's hard to not wear them, due to "social norms" and that ongoing fear of how people are going to perceive us but I've got faith you can do it. I love seeing you for you.
ReplyDeleteYou've been wearing a mask for far too long, with your friends especially. Pretending to be this great person who has their best interest in mind, yet when it comes down to it, you're only out for number 1. Being president of TWUSA means putting others before yourself on a daily basis. If you can't show this amongst your friends, how do you expect to display this character trait amongst the entire student body.
ReplyDeleteOkay, if that is what you believe then call me out give me an example and I'd love to learn how I can really put other people first more and more. So honestly I am open to working through my problems you have presented my issues well the next step is helping me know what it is and how I can improve on it.
ReplyDeleteI wonder what friend you are talking about because I know my friends I put ahead of myself on a regular basis. I am not perfect by no means but if I did not put them first I would sleep alot more instead of staying out and talking.