~ Pride is an admission of weakness; it secretly fears all competition and dreads all rivals. ~
- Fulton J. Sheen
Something I suffer with and something I believe is that the majority of guys and girls in our generation suffer/struggle with pride. Pride can be a good thing or a bad thing but is rarely is it a positive thing. Let me explain that statement. Pride is a good thing when you are trying to fake confidence, trying to hide your own insecurities and show the world that everything is fine. Pride is a bad thing when we actually want help, when we are fearsome about things in life and when we do not believe we are good enough. Pride is rarely positive unless it is pride is a school, or pride in a faith you have or pride is a positive change (ending slavery for example). However, for the most part pride is a negative aspect of our human nature.
When I was going through depression something I noticed which lines up with this quote is that at the peak of my depression my pride was the highest. Being a guy and going through depression is a tough thing because in this society we are shown what a guy should be like. Or maybe it is my own image of what a guy should be but we should be strong, courageous and also should not let this phase us. But how does depression and pride play into this? Well it is simple depression can start as simple as believing we do not fit the mold that society has for us. Pride is what keeps us trying to pretend we are more then we are. Take a second to evaluate your own life how often does pride come in the way of being vulnerable. I mean I can count on my hand the number of times it has for me, the problem is I have gained a lot of hands along the way.
Even after depression and in the recovery of it I have noticed that pride is still a fault in my life even though depression might not be. I find myself whenever I get scared or nervous or loss confidence I resort to pride because it is a wall I can and have put up. I believe I am getting better with this because the first step in getting over something is being able to acknowledge when something is happening. I am starting to notice now when I am getting prideful and in return it allows me to realize that I am scared of something. It is good to finally get to the point in your life when you can use pride to recognize your weaknesses.
So I want to conclude with this and go back to my main point, pride is not a great thing. The 'good' aspects of it are not actually great things they more entail being fake and not real. Who really wants to be someone they are not? Great statement eh? In a lot of ways I think we all want to be someone more or someone we are not because that is what we are taught in our society that we are not good enough. I guess my warning to you is this, do not let pride be your scapegoat in this situation. Otherwise people will not be able to help you and you will not be able to help yourself. Hopefully you guys take a lesson from me instead of having to experience it yourself. Let you control your pride instead of letting your pride control you.
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